Of course this was also “innocent” despite the fact that he had written her at least one letter, they had gone for walks together and he had offered to pick her up from work.
It goes without saying, he never mentioned her to me.
This stands in stark contrast to the man he purported to be at the beginning of our relationship almost ten years ago.
I am sickened by him but at the same time feel this empathy for him – I feel badly that he isn’t seeing the kids as much as before, I feel badly that he seems to be suffering.
At times I feel “his feelings” almost more than my own and I wonder if I have lost myself to this person. Especially when I start feeling like I just want to go back to him and pretend none of this ever happened. In therapy he is apologetic and is saying the right things, but, as always, it doesn’t feel authentic to me. I can’t believe he thought so little of me that he would put my LIFE in danger by having sex with prostitutes. He’s now saying he’s a sex addict – that he’s been dealing w compulsive porn use for twenty years, “only rarely” surfs escort sites and “even more rarely” actually had sex w prostitutes. And in twenty years there have “only” been six (now it’s six, by the way) prostitutes. I’ve asked for transparency for us to move forward but I don’t think I’m getting it and don’t know if I ever will OR if he is being honest, if I’d be able to tell.
The real man is a hairs breadth from freaking out about the smallest thing.
A person who seems irritated to “have” to spend time w the kids at a playground on the weekend.
He said it was titillating to set up the dates but always cancelled them.
He also had been having some sort of relationship w a woman he met in a coffee shop – a woman twenty years his junior.He said to just throw them away – he had just used them while we were living apart for a year prior to marrying.It seemed like an excessive number of discs to me, but I let it go, comforted by the fact that he would agree to throw them away so readily. I had become suspicious for various reasons and looked at the cookies and cache on his computer (he always erased his browser history and would turn the computer away from me if I was nearby).Nothing makes us happier than good sex, especially when it’s constant.But as all men push dumb hard to maintain a healthy sex life, most wind up falling short because of their whack bed game and pickup skills.Some of the categories you will find include Friendship, Casual Encounters and Personals Services.